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Post by malkav565 on Aug 30, 2010 18:56:14 GMT -5
Adam looks to Rin, then back to Za'era. "Neither do I hold grudges to those who try to harm me."Adam looks to Rin pointedly. "As for you, young Rin, you should mind your manners toward your elders, for they are wiser than you."
"What I don't understand about 'I don't care' is everything. Caring is what makes us different from these forces Za'era speaks of. If you don't care, then your battles make no difference. If you don't care, then there is no need to fight at all. You can submit yourself to the mercy of the Dragon and his forces."
"To be further clear, Rin - I am not afraid of you, nor your young-adult rage. I fear FOR you. Precisely because you don't care."
Rin looks shocked for a moment before he shakes his head. "I don't exactly hold grudges even to those who hurt me. So don't worry about that. Waht I'm more concerned about is if you are going to be ok?" His gaze shifts to Adam for a moment as he raises a claw. "What about "I don't care." Is hard to understand? Really if your afraid of it then just leave the room. Thank you for helping me carry her in however."
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Post by malkav565 on Aug 30, 2010 18:58:06 GMT -5
if you could just translate for Adam too, that would be easier. He can communicate telepathically at will, getting around language barriers(May I have a translation of that Madelaine....? Yay tounges.) (( sent you a PM ))
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Post by malkav565 on Aug 30, 2010 19:01:35 GMT -5
Adam looks to Za'era. "I believe my father already works for this Takhisis demon. You need not fear for my soul, for I was born more damned than these forces could tempt one to be."
"Your demon queen Takhisis will likely be aware of us anyway, as we oppose these forces. You must worry about your own path. I fear that killing that foe, as just as it may seem, did not help your walk in the light."
Za'era looks up at Rin then to Adam and back at Rin. "I... do not want you get hurt. Neither of you. You have been so kind to me and Adam... I know him from the past. He is a kind soul." She looks down. "I know you do not believe me but I saw priests of my kin with powers granted by a god - by Takhisis. She is back and she wants more than just my kin following her. Venorik is a high priestess of her... she... she is one of my sisters and..." She stops talking for a moment. "There will be war. Takhisis wants power. There is so much hate I can feel from her. She is whispering and calling. They want me back and fight on their side and now... now she will come for you all as well. Haunting you in your dreams. Whisper to you. Promise you things you want most. Just to seduce you and follow her... or she will..." Once again she stops and lowers her head. She closes her eyes. "I do not want you get hurt. Neither of you. Thats why I left the tavern. I thought she will not become aware of you all if I leave fast enough but now... now its too late." She sighs and rests against Rins warm feathers.
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Post by madelaine on Aug 30, 2010 19:02:31 GMT -5
(( Sent a PM as well ))
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Post by darkalloy on Aug 30, 2010 19:29:18 GMT -5
Rin glares at Adam, which is odd as it is rare for him to glare wiht out cracking up.
"You still don't get what I mean do you? Think about the context about my not caring right now and if you still don't get it you are a lost cause. The type of carelessness I have is what allows me to live like I do. If not I would always be worried about something, and thats no way to go through life."
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Post by Andre on Aug 31, 2010 9:38:31 GMT -5
THERE we go , I was wondering when the monk philosophy " you must be THIS way young grasshopper" was going to kick in ;D
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Post by malkav565 on Aug 31, 2010 16:32:43 GMT -5
Adam smiles.
"I understand completely. I am trying to challenge you to see things a different way. I have seen the depths of the Hells and the heights of meditation and peace."
"Not caring IS worrying. It implies that caring would bring harmful consequences. This is a seductive route to evil. You care a little less each day, feeling less obvious pain. Then one day you awaken to horrific actions you feel no concern about having done."
"The way of the Forgotten temple is to care without worry. It is to love without dependence. It is to teach without speaking. It is a testament to my instructors that I have such a hard time talking of the Way, while they showed me the path without words."
"But know that you can care without worrying. But you cannot be at peace if you are numb."
"Our wrathful talk has wounded my heart. But to numb myself to this pain, I would have to hide it. Instead I see it and I accept it and I let it go. My pain is gone. I care again without worry - for I know I am in control of my decisions."
"I hope this helps you understand our true foe. It is not the Dragon - his grand might is a pittance to our complacent action. But our fears and our hurts can slay us from inside."
"I watch Eolaer lose control. I watch Nine wander, lost. I watch Reika withdraw. And I watch you, my most beloved friend, punish others with a frightful wrath."
"And I am concerned for you. But I do not worry - these choices are yours to make. As they are for our foes. These wounds only hurt you in the end."
[quote author=darkalloy board=forumroleplay thread=134 post=1309 time=1283214558]Rin glares at Adam, which is odd as it is rare for him to glare wiht out cracking up.
"You still don't get what I mean do you? Think about the context about my not caring right now and if you still don't get it you are a lost cause. The type of carelessness I have is what allows me to live like I do. If not I would always be worried about something, and thats no way to go through life."[/quote]
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Post by darkalloy on Aug 31, 2010 16:44:17 GMT -5
Rin chuckles. "Ok so you get it slightly. Still wrong but close."
Rin plops himself down on the floor next to Za'era. "Maybe I'll tell you what I mean later. It's still more useful to figure it out on your own."
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Post by darkalloy on Sept 1, 2010 8:07:45 GMT -5
(I'm fine wiht keeping it going atleast for a little bit. but it's up to everyone else. I know everyone seems to be a bit pressed for time right now.)
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Post by Andre on Sept 1, 2010 9:51:09 GMT -5
(I'm fine wiht keeping it going atleast for a little bit. but it's up to everyone else. I know everyone seems to be a bit pressed for time right now.) By which he means he's fine with keeping this forum RP thread going a while longer ..
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Post by darkalloy on Sept 1, 2010 9:55:39 GMT -5
(Hmm.... I suppose I do need a translator not everyone can speak okie.)
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Post by madelaine on Sept 1, 2010 15:00:54 GMT -5
Za'era looks at Rin then shrugs.
"I do not know what is wrong with me. There are times I feel... overwhelmed. Like if something or someone is calling me. It influences my actions and ... makes me feel."
She turns to Adam.
"This day we met the first time. I... I have been a different person. A lot happened since then. I... I can not feel anymore. Like all is gone but sorrow and sadness."
The drow slowly pulls the robe off at one of her shoulders and shows her bare skin or what is left of it. There are scars all over and the skin is barely normal at any single given spot. All of them seem to be at least a year old. Some even older. She slowly pulls up the clothes again and almost shameful covers her body.
"My whole body looks like this. Only my face and neck they spared." She sighs. "I buried my feelings so they could not harm me. No one can hurt me anymore. Physical pain has no meaning to me anymore. But sometimes when I hear those whispers I can feel again. Mostly it is only rage and anger and hate but... it... makes me feel alive. Not numb anymore."
She rests against Rin and closes her eyes.
"Adam, you said if you do not care anymore then it is horrific. The route to evil. I am afraid that in this case I turned into something evil even more than my mother ever dreamed of as I do not care about even my own life anymore. The seed of evil seems still strong inside even though I tried to fight it so badly my whole life. Maybe I can not avoid my destiny."
Za'era slowly turns in the arms of Rin and burries her face in his feathers. She pulls her robe tight obviously not being proud of all this. Neither her scars nor the "seed".
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Post by malkav565 on Sept 1, 2010 16:41:13 GMT -5
Adam smiles. "I regularly have dreams of the pain and suffering of mortal souls." Those who know Adam see something strange come about him... something fearful... "I leave my body in those dreams and hover above the writhing masses. I see their flesh burn and their souls warp into horrific shapes."Is there the touch of a brimstone scent in the air? And are Adam's eye really glowing dimly? "This is not the frightening part. As I hover above these pitiful wretches, I feel a darkening wholeness to myself - a dark purpose come to roost in my heart. It is then I realize that I am their dark master! IT IS I THAT DECIDE THEIR FATE!"Adam snaps out of this rapture, unaware that his arms have risen in triumphant ecstasy as his eyes dim their hellish glow. He breathes calmly and his eyes return to a dull purple. Adam continues, slightly exhausted and somewhat shaken. His breathing is belabored as he begins relaxation pranas. "We all are a razor's edge from losing everything, my elvish friend. That is what makes it so important to fight the actions of these urges."
"But the urges themselves are part of us. They are part of our whole. We cannot abandon our inner evil. We must expose it to the light and allow it to pass through us, unharming."With that, Adam has returned to his humble gait. You have never seen him unleash his inner devil before. Unlike what you might expect, Adam looks almost proud of his heritage. There is no trace of shame or disgust in his features. "Za'era - the way forward is the way down. You must embrace the evil in your soul. You must accept it and you must forgive it. You are a... drow? elf. You must be proud of this lineage. You have been born in fire! You are tempered by pain and suffering! These scars are not in vain."
"Now take that inner evil and accept that it is part of you. It is your past. Now use it. Use it as it would use you. Turn it to good. Do not accept the failure of evil to redeem itself. There is no way but up now."
"Our foes are but echoes of this struggle. If you kill them, you kill and reject yourself. But they are like you - yearning for freedom from pain and desire!"
"You must lead yourself from the Hells before you can guide them. You can do this. You must realize that you are far stronger than Takhisis."
Adam is exultant again, but glowing with a sacred light and far less fearsome. Za'era looks at Rin then shrugs. "I do not know what is wrong with me. There are times I feel... overwhelmed. Like if something or someone is calling me. It influences my actions and ... makes me feel." She turns to Adam. "This day we met the first time. I... I have been a different person. A lot happened since then. I... I can not feel anymore. Like all is gone but sorrow and sadness." The drow slowly pulls the robe off at one of her shoulders and shows her bare skin or what is left of it. There are scars all over and the skin is barely normal at any single given spot. All of them seem to be at least a year old. Some even older. She slowly pulls up the clothes again and almost shameful covers her body. "My whole body looks like this. Only my face and neck they spared." She sighs. "I buried my feelings so they could not harm me. No one can hurt me anymore. Physical pain has no meaning to me anymore. But sometimes when I hear those whispers I can feel again. Mostly it is only rage and anger and hate but... it... makes me feel alive. Not numb anymore." She rests against Rin and closes her eyes. "Adam, you said if you do not care anymore then it is horrific. The route to evil. I am afraid that in this case I turned into something evil even more than my mother ever dreamed of as I do not care about even my own life anymore. The seed of evil seems still strong inside even though I tried to fight it so badly my whole life. Maybe I can not avoid my destiny." Za'era slowly turns in the arms of Rin and burries her face in his feathers. She pulls her robe tight obviously not being proud of all this. Neither her scars nor the "seed".
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Post by darkalloy on Sept 1, 2010 17:42:12 GMT -5
Rin blinks at Adam's display then starts laughing. "You need to do that more often, It's hilarious."
Setting his hand on the back of Za'era's head he rubs it. "Adam is right though you need to be proud to be a Drow. Hell be proud to be an underfolk in general."
Rin rubs the spot on Za'era's shoulder which she showed. "And your scars are not onlyt sexy to me, but they earn you great respect I would think. To go through that and not end up completely and unequivocally evil. Besides look at who you are with right now."
Pointing to himself then Adam he smiles. "I look like I was tarred and feathered to alot of people, and scales over there is scaled all over or so his wife told me. That and most everyone thinks he was cursed and is touched in the head."
Rin chuckles. "So take a moment to realize who you are with, then tell me are you still ashamed? If so then we will have to be extra proud for you. "
Looking up at the ceiling Rin sighs. "I really do hate when Adam makes a good point,becuase I want to disagree with him all the time and can't."
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Post by madelaine on Sept 1, 2010 18:49:39 GMT -5
Za'era shakes her head and whispers softly.
"You are not ugly to me. I like your warm feathers and your smile even though you try to hide behind it sometimes. You are a kind person. You are not embarrassing to me and I wish I had the confidence Adam has."
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